Translator: SJade, Editor: Dj22031
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The light in the bedroom was dim, and the warm fragrance of Yan Qing’s body was still in the air, which was the scent that Huo Yunshen craved day and night.
Before falling asleep, she obediently rubbed his palm and promised to wake up to celebrate his birthday with her tone and expression, which was still vivid in his memory.
But at this moment, everything was like a dream, shattered in the cruellest way and frozen into ice.
A few hours ago, the person who said she loved him and would give him a family now held up a pillow and slammed it heavily on his shoulder. Until there was a bright red bloodstain.
Huo Yunshen couldn’t feel the pain.
He stared at Yan Qing without blinking, with a trembling voice, he called her again: “Qingqing.”
“Didn’t I tell you not to call me that?” Yan Qing stared at the bloody hole on Huo Yunshen’s face, eyes widened, it was very round, full of panic and vigilance, drowning the guilt of accidentally hurting someone, “How could you be like this—”
She just woke up, her temples were tingling like needles, and her nerves seemed to be entangled in disorder, they were pulling at each other, torturing her will.
Yan Qing stared at the man in front of her with difficulty, holding her breath.
She remembered that she had just obtained a permit to live in this villa with him, and she had agreed in advance that each of them would sleep separately, and that he would never cross the line. Why did he lie beside her as soon as she closed her eyes, hugging her tightly? Yes… It seemed that she was kissed by him.
Was this person totally dishonest!
Just treat her like this casually, and treat her for nothing, despite her trusting him!
Yan Qing grabbed the quilt to wrapped herself tightly, and backed away desperately: “Huo Yunshen, you came to my bed privately, changed my name and called that name indiscriminately! If you are so careless, what’s the use of the contract we signed before marriage? How about we hurry up and get a divorce at dawn!”
Her face showed rejection, repulsion, dislike, and refusal to let him come within thousands of miles of her.
She said divorce.
The pain that he thought he would never experience again, turned into a huge jagged boulder in the blink of an eye, and all pressed against Huo Yunshen, crushing him to a bloody mess.
He stared at her blankly, his whole body was so cold that his fingers were stiff and he couldn’t lift a single bit.
“Wife,” he opened his mouth and begged her in a low voice, “Don’t scare me, I can’t take it anymore.”
Yan Qing met his bloodshot eyes, with a faint crimson frenzy, she thought in a trance that she had returned to the beginning. On the bridge that saved him, he also had such extreme eyes, which could tear her apart, and where he seemed to have been mourning like an abandoned patient.
She was a little scared, but there was an unknown ache in her heart, and tears flowed down unconsciously.
Why was she in pain, she should just run away quickly.
Huo Yunshen was obviously abnormal, he obviously broke the precept first, but ended up acting like a victim, as if he was going crazy with her.
“You’re scaring me!” Yan Qing’s lips turned pale, and she glared at him defensively, “I shouldn’t believe what you wrote in the contract, and it’s not suitable to live with you. It’s scary!”
As soon as they got together, he sneaked into her bedroom and kissed and hugged her. After being accused, his eyes were full of madness. What’s the next step, would he use force!
Yan Qing didn’t dare to reason with him anymore, she stumbled out of bed, and ran out barefoot without even putting on her slippers.
The man’s heavy breathing was trembling, and he was extremely dangerous as he ran behind her.
She had just run a few steps, but before she touched the door, she was grabbed by Huo Yunshen who had gotten up suddenly. His five fingers were like cast steel, and he pulled her waist back. She gasped in shock and fell back on the bed in an instant.
Huo Yunshen held her down, and squeezed her chin tightly with his cold hands, forcing her to look at him.
The blood dripping from his face fell into her ears, his face was completely torn: “Yan Qing!”
Yan Qing felt the warm redness.
It just brushed against her skin lightly, but it felt as if it was burning with high temperature, and it would burn through her body.
“Let me go…” This feeling was so wrong, Yan Qing pushed him as hard as she could in fear, “Let go of me! Are you a pervert, there’s no way you’re going to bully—”
With a “huh”, she said everything. All the words that could not be finished were swallowed into the man’s mouth.
He kissed her fiercely, wrapped his arms around her, his moist and hot lips were full of despair and helplessness, almost ferociously begging, he was panting, every breath made a sound like crying, grinding her lips hard.
Yan Qing half-opened her eyes, she could see him clearly for a moment, then they blurred for a moment.
Her eyelashes were wet, her body was hot, and she even instinctively wanted to hug his neck to meet him.
Crazy… he was crazy, and so was she.
Yan Qing bit him cruelly, tasted the salty bloody smell, but she didn’t know that he didn’t stop at all, as if she didn’t feel any pain, she bit harder, when he had to loosen a bit, she immediately struggled, and fled towards the corridor with misty eyes.
She couldn’t calm down and talk to him!
If she wanted to leave, she could leave here first and go back to the “Rise It! Girls” program group, she could go anywhere, but she couldn’t stay.
Yan Qing was caught as soon as she entered the corridor. She couldn’t resist the man’s overwhelming strength, so she was forcibly hugged by him.
“Huo Yunshen, you lunatic! Can you be normal!”
Huo Yunshen stared at her, his voice so hoarse that he said incoherently: “I’m a lunatic, I’m abnormal, I’m perverted, terrible, you can’t trust me, you can’t talk to me, you can’t live together with me…”
Yan Qing said every word.
But being repeated one by one by Huo Yunshen himself, Yan Qing’s frantic heart felt like it was being smashed by a heavy hammer.
Huo Yunshen held her deeply, and his fingertips sank into her flesh: “I’ve always been like this. From before to now, I haven’t had a good time, but you wanted me, and you said you loved me.”
Yan Qing was stunned, suddenly dizzy, and reflexively broke free.
Huo Yunshen’s knees were bent, and he hugged her and knelt straight on the carpet. His sweaty forehead was buried in her neck, as he bit her shoulder, his teeth trembling: “Qingqing, think about it, think about who I am.”
“Don’t forget me,” he hugged her tightly, trying to break her bones, “Don’t go, don’t leave me behind! Today is my birthday, you promised you will wake up after a short sleep, you will wake up and say happy birthday to me, and tell me how wonderful this day is, it’s not hell…”
His whole body was cold: “Qingqing, please, don’t let me go to hell.”
Yan Qing didn’t know how she could stop crying unable to stop, her ears were ringing like a bell, her eyes gradually darkened, she wanted to grab Huo Yunshen’s clothes, but she put them down feebly, and collapsed on his chest.
She muttered vaguely a few times, and soon became quiet, softening into a ball.
Huo Yunshen hugged her, and a choked sob finally leaked from his clenched teeth.
He sent her back to the bedroom, wrapped her in a quilt, wiped away the tears on her face, held her tightly with one hand, and pressed the phone with difficulty with the other.
When the call was connected, Dr. He opened his mouth first: “Mr. Huo, I’m already on the flight back to China. I’ll turn off the phone immediately. I’ll contact you after landing tomorrow to check up on your wife.”
“Her memory,” Huo Yunshen tried his best to speak steadily, “After a short sleep, it returned to a few months ago, and now she has lost consciousness.”
Dr. He lost his voice: “What?!”
Huo Yunshen gradually couldn’t restrain himself: “Is she in danger?”
Dr. He took a few deep breaths, and calmly asked: “In short, has your wife thought about the past again recently? For example, any special key points? Or, have you frequently mentioned the past with her? Has her affection for you deepened significantly?”
Huo Yunshen’s chest was cut by a sharp knife, and he answered Doctor He’s questions sentence by sentence.
“She remembered the details, she often dreamed about it, optimistically thinking that she was going to restore her memory.”
“The key point… remembered a special person.”
“I didn’t tell her about the past, for fear that she would not be able to bear it, but,” he said staring at Yan Qing with red eyes, “Maybe someone else said it.”
“Also, she said she loves me.”
Dr. He’s heart was heavy, the thing he had been worrying about but dared not mention lightly still happened.
He said awe-inspiringly: “Mr. Huo, listen to me. Since the first time you brought your wife to me, I told you that her nerves are already very fragile, and every step she takes is like walking on thin ice. It’s been like this for so long. Her willpower and emotions are what made her make unimaginable progress today, but at the same time, she is also bearing a corresponding load.”
“Her real memory is locked, because she longs to remember, she has been unconsciously hitting the gate, it’s tantamount to self-mutilation,” he said solemnly, “every time she thinks about it, or even deepens her feelings for you, it’s stimulating her weak nerves. On the day when she can’t bear it, her memory will naturally be confused, and she may regress, or she may not be able to bear it anymore. One day, she will not remember at all, returning to the moment after she was tampered with.”
Because the old memory was sealed up, and the new memory collapsed, when the human brain collapsed extremely, it would return to the moment it was set to origin.
But whether “a special person” existed or not, and whether his wife would have more extreme developments in the future, Dr. He dare not make a conclusion at such an urgent juncture.
He resolutely said: “Relax for the time being, this is the first time Madam has experienced such a situation, and there will be no danger in a short time.”
“Let her rest more, and don’t let her be stimulated. Her current memory is confused. The whole world is changing, and when she wakes up again, she may still forget, or remember, she has no knowledge of what she just did, in short, I will talk about it in detail when I return to Haicheng.”
Huo Yunshen didn’t pause for a moment, not caring what time it was, he contacted Xu Mohan.
Xu Mohan was frightened: “…Mr. Huo?!”
“Did you tell Qingqing about the past?”
Xu Mohan heard his tone, and cold sweat broke out on her body: “Yes, since I met her, she yelled at me saying that she wants to hear both of your love story when you were in college, and I couldn’t bear to reject her…”
Huo Yunshen asked coldly, “Did she have any abnormal reactions?”
Xu Mohan knew everything: “The day we met, her eyes seemed to see through me. In the past, she passed out for several hours, and then she often felt dizzy and drowsy. She refused me to tell you, so I just…”
Huo Yunshen closed his eyes, and his five fingers whitened as he tightly held the phone.
In the silent night, the person on the bed was not stable, and her forehead was dripping with sweat.
Huo Yunshen lifted the quilt, wrapped Yan Qing into his arms, kissed her messy long hair, and took pains to comfort her. He opened his mouth a few times, and couldn’t help but want to call her, and then he gritted his teeth until his lips were also scratched and bleeding.
At three o’clock in the morning, Yan Qing finally calmed down, her delicate eyebrows relaxed, and her breathing was no longer hasty.
Huo Yunshen got out of bed, left the bedroom, his thin body swayed, and slowly walked into the balcony at the end of the corridor.
The spring wind was still cold, there were long bright lights downstairs, he could see Qingqing running across the courtyard with fluttering hair, there was a swing in the courtyard, he had set it up for her, she often lazily nested on it, skirts fluttering, then she opened her hands and smiled and called him “Shenshen”.
Huo Yunshen laughed silently, but hot liquid fell into the night from his eye sockets.
He raised his hand, holding the cigarette case dug out along the road.
He hadn’t smoked for a long time.
In the past, living was like dying. At that time, Qingqing didn’t like smoking, so he quit immediately. After Qingqing disappeared, he sat in front of the house countless times, lit a cigarette and watched it burn, hoping that Qingqing could see it so that she would come and scold him.
Huo Yunshen stared down at the jumping fire, and lit it.
The acrid smoke choked his throat, he covered his mouth, coughed dully, his back bent, and the shape of his joints could not be covered by his thin clothes.
Yan Qing sat up in the bedroom, pressing her spinning forehead.
She remained silent for a while, and finally suppressed the turbulent chaos in her mind, and slowly regained her clarity. She was a little slow to react, looked around carefully, and then checked the time with her mobile phone.
Ten past three.
Yan Qing frowned and thought for a while, then glanced at the sky, and suddenly said “ah”.
Damn it, it was early morning!
She went to bed after dinner and didn’t wake up until now? !
He wasn’t in bed at three o’clock in the morning, where did he go, oh my god, she was heartless, she was thinking of celebrating his birthday as soon as twelve o’clock came, but it turned out to be delayed until now!
Yan Qing hurriedly got out of bed to look for him. As soon as she got out of the bedroom, she saw from a distance that the door leading to the balcony was half open, and there was a faint light inside.
After confirming where he was, Yan Qing breathed a sigh of relief.
Going to have a chill in the middle of the night, did he feel lost when he saw her sleeping stupidly…
Yan Qing pursed her lips, turned back to the bed, quietly opened the small drawer beside the bed, and found the set of cat cosplay hidden inside, turned it over a few times like a thief, she was really embarrassed to put it all on, and finally put the cat ear hairpin on my head.
When she got up, she gave a top-heavy support, didn’t pay much attention to it, slipped into the bathroom and quickly put on her makeup, put on his favourite nightdress, and approached the terrace cautiously.
Yan Qing didn’t expect to see Huo Yunshen smoking.
He stood alone in the night wind, his body seemed to be pierced through, and the smoke between his fingers was like blood-stained eyes, silently burning to ashes.
How could she let him… have such lonely moments.
Yan Qing touched the inexplicable moisture in the corner of his eyes, leaned over gently, and hugged the man’s cold back.
Huo Yunshen was as cold as a sculpture.
She couldn’t help hugging him even tighter: “Shenshen.”
Yan Qing felt that she must be hallucinating, but unexpectedly…felt a hint of muffled tears.
“I woke up Shenshen,” she said nasally, “Are you blaming me for sleeping too deeply?”
Huo Yunshen turned around, with the injured half of his face hidden in the shadows.
The little girl was wearing a skirt, showing her snow-white shoulders, and wearing a pair of pink plush cat ears in her long hair. She was blushing and looking at him lovingly.
His wrist was shaking.
Yan Qing touched the tips of her ears embarrassingly, stretched her arms around his neck, and asked with a smile: “A genuine Qingqing cat, do you like it?”
Satisfied, she tiptoed and kissed his chin: “Mr. Huo, happy birthday.”
Huo Yunshen’s ice-like fingertips touched her face, his chest was kneaded into mud, and begged in a low voice: “Qingqing, I want to hear you say you love me.”
Yan Qing wrapped her arms around his waist, with a sweet voice, and solemnly confessed: “Huo Yunshen is the best, gentlest and most handsome boy in the world, and I love him.”
Her eyes were like the moon, just like when she was on the street outside the school. In the dark night, she said softly: “There are so many people in the world, I only love this one.”
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