Translator: Dj2203
Editor: Dj2203
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Su Xi was startled, and her face suddenly turned red.
She then hurriedly tried to stand up.
In her panic, she completely forgot that there was a table above her head and her head slammed into it. Fortunately, just before her head hit the table with a “bang,” Lu Huan reacted quickly and blocked it with his hand, so Su Xi only made a dull thud when she hit his palm.
Su Xi plopped down on the ground, anxiously grasping Lu Huan’s hand: “Are you alright? Does it hurt?”
“It’s alright.” A glint of brilliance flickered in Lu Huan’s eyes as he looked at her, about to speak, when he suddenly heard footsteps outside again—
Lu Huan’s mouth was suddenly covered by Su Xi. The two of them immediately stopped talking and held their breath.
Mother Su knocked twice on the door: “Dinner’s ready, Xi Xi.”
Mother Su looked at the doorknob strangely and said, “Why would you lock the door for no reason?”
Su Xi’s heart jumped into her throat. She didn’t know if it was because she was frightened by her mother being outside the door, or because of the warm breath of the energetic young man so close to her, which landed on her palm.
The two were so close that all they could hear was the rapid thumping of their hearts, but they couldn’t tell whose heart it was.
“I’m coming right away! Right away!” Su Xi quickly called out.
Mother Su then walked away, saying, “Hurry up, or the food will get cold.”
After Mother Su left, Su Xi finally breathed a sigh of relief. She sat on the ground and slowly released her hand from Lu Huan’s mouth, her cheeks burning.
Lu Huan seemed lost in thought, and his ears had turned slightly red.
A moment later, he stood up and helped Su Xi up from the ground. He then lowered his voice and said, “Sorry, did I doze off just now?”
“Go back and get some rest.” Su Xi whispered, afraid her parents outside would hear, “I’m going out to eat first, otherwise my mom will come and call me again later.”
“Okay.” Lu Huan turned off the air conditioner for her and smiled. “Go ahead.”
The original plan was for Lu Huan to take a shower and change into his old clothes before going back, but his parents returned early, so Lu Huan obviously couldn’t leave his room to go to the bathroom. Besides, he hadn’t eaten dinner yet.
Su Xi felt uneasy, afraid of being discovered by her parents, as if she were a thief, and at the same time, she felt sorry for Lu Huan for not eating or sleeping well.
She walked to the doorway and turned back, still feeling uneasy.
Lu Huan stood in the room, gazing at her, his features as pure as the first snow.
Su Xi heard her parents talking outside and was terrified. She calmed herself down and opened the door.
….
But before she could leave, she stopped in her tracks once again.
She turned around again.
….
Lu Huan remained standing there, watching her retreating figure with a hint of reluctance in his eyes. It seemed he wanted to wait until she left the room before touching her phone and then leaving himself.
But to his surprise, she kept turning back to look at him.
He raised his eyebrows, indicating to her: What’s wrong?
As Su Xi looked at him, she couldn’t help but recall the times she had disappointed him.
That time at the military camp outside the capital city.
That time in the Ministry of War courtyard.
That time in the Imperial Garden.
….
Every time, he would watch her leave, just like now, waiting for her to log off first. As the screen slowly faded out, he tried his best not to show his disappointment— just like now.
She knew before that he had a hard time waiting for her to log on. But now, she felt a pang of heartache because of it…
Is liking someone the same as feeling sorry for them?
She didn’t want him to be unhappy, nor did she want him to wait too long.
So, liking someone should also require courage.
It’s impossible that he did so much while I did nothing, watching him come to my world like a man rushing to the moon, disregarding everything.
Su Xi suddenly closed the door gently and quickly walked back to Lu Huan’s side.
Before Lu Huan could react, Su Xi grabbed the hem of his short-sleeved shirt and whispered, “Before you came, didn’t the Empress want to select a concubine for you? How did you handle that?”
Previously, Su Xi had never cared about this, never cared whether there were other women around him. In fact, Lu Huan thought that if he really got married and had children one day, she would probably be overjoyed, even more so than he was.
Therefore, when Lu Huan heard Su Xi ask this question, he subconsciously thought that she wanted to persuade him not to disobey the imperial decree after returning home.
His hands and feet went ice-cold, and an overwhelming sense of loss welled up inside him. A sharp pain shot through his heart, but he steadied himself, struggling to suppress it, and said in a hoarse voice, “Why ask that? Even if you…”
Even if, as she said that day, she only regarded him as a friend and a child, he could not possibly have anyone else in his eyes besides her.
Knowing this already, why would she still advise him to marry someone else?
Hearing such words from her was, for Lu Huan, no less than a slow, agonizing death.
He wanted her to stop saying that. But no matter how angry he was, he couldn’t bring himself to say anything harsh to her.
However, before Lu Huan could speak, Su Xi whispered, “You’re not allowed to choose.”
Lu Huan was stunned, and for a moment he could hardly believe his ears.
He even doubted he had heard correctly.
He lowered his eyes and stared at her hastily, somewhat bewildered.
Su Xi tilted her head slightly, looked at him, and repeated nervously, “You are not allowed to choose a concubine after you go back. You are not allowed to.”
….
Lu Huan stared at her blankly, as if he had heard something earth-shattering.
As his mind slowly began to process and he came to understand the meaning of her words, his suffocating breathing gradually became rapid.
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