Translator: SJade, Editor: Dj22031
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Finally Qiu Li agreed to Jiang Yu and went to see a psychiatrist, trying to find the root cause of his illness.
The doctor performed hypnotherapy on him several times, but the effect was not good, because Qiu Li was hypnotized many times by his father when he was a child, and he himself was very resistant to this kind of treatment.
Coupled with his strong self-will, any overly aggressive treatment was not suitable for him.
The doctor could only use a relatively mild method to let him go back to the past in a dream through sleep, looking for the window that had never been opened.
Qiu Li recalled many things from his childhood.
For example, in order to get him to quit sugar, his father tied him to a chair, held a lollipop in his mouth, and displayed bloody and disgusting pictures on the slide, and then repeated it to deepen his memory, so that as soon as he tasted the candy, his mind would naturally remember the disgusting pictures.
Later, whenever he saw candy, he would physically vomit…
Another example, in order to make him lose sympathy and kindness, he was forced to torture and kill the puppy he had raised for three years…
All the terrible things that Qiu Li encountered made him psychologically self-conscious. As a mechanism of protection, his five senses began to shut down, and any physiological and psychological stimulation by his father… lost the feeling.
He no longer perceived sweetness, so he no longer vomited, he lost the sensation of pain, so no matter how much he shocked him, Qiu Li didn’t make a sound;
Over time, he was thrown to the tenth floor of hell. In that world, he lived like a walking dead, staring at the world indifferently.
Life was no better than death.
Fortunately, in his gloomy childhood, if there was still a ray of light, it may be that woman, “his mother”.
His mother was very beautiful. When she smiled, two sweet dimples appeared at the corners of her mouth.
Every time, his mother would bring him a lot of candy, put it in his purse, and then touch his little head, saying that Li Li is so cute.
Maybe his mother was the only person in this world who thought he was cute.
Qiu Li still remembered that noon, when his father was not there, his mother took a lunch break in the office where his father received patients.
Qiu Li pushed open the door, brought the little bird injured by his slingshot to his mother, and gave it to her with a smile.
When his mother saw the bloody little bird, she was startled, and then told him in a very fierce tone that he must never hurt the little animal, otherwise she would never talk to him again.
Qiu Li asked her why?
His mother said: “Because the bird also feels pain.”
Qiu Li said: “But I don’t feel it at all.”
As he said that, his hand clenched tightly, and the bird struggled in his palm, and finally died.
A little life humbled and quietly left.
It was quiet at noon, with no wind or cicadas singing.
Later, Qiu Li recalled that quiet afternoon countless times, and it was hard for him to forget the way his mother looked at him at noon that day.
Also from that day on, he never saw his mother again.
It was because he behaved too badly, so his mother never brought him delicious candies, and never smiled at him softly again…
His Mom left him forever.
It was all his fault.
Subconsciously, Qiu Li crazily wanted to make up for his mistake at noon that day. He wanted to tell his mother that he was willing to listen to her, and never hurt small animals again.
But it was too late, and he never saw the woman again.
The psychiatrist’s advice to Qiu Li was to see his mother, because no matter how many traumas he experienced as a child, from the beginning to the end, that woman was the only beautiful existence in his heart.
Maybe once this beauty was recovered, everything would suddenly become clear.
All his mental problems would also heal without medicine.
Qiu Li was struggling repeatedly for a long, long time, staying up all night, watching the momentary junction of night and day in the sky, waking up in the morning and evening, and the world was recovering, with the college entrance examination report card in his hand.
Finally, Qiu Li put in a lot of effort and courage, and decided to go to Ren Xian.
Tell her that he was her son, that he worked really hard to get into Beicheng University, and he tried very hard to come to her side and make her proud of him.
Qiu Li didn’t tell Jiang Yu that he had been seeing a psychiatrist, nor did he tell her that he was going to see his mother.
When he fully recovered, he would give her a big surprise.
Everything would be fine, and they would get better together.
That afternoon, Qiu Li put on a brand new white shirt, cleaned his shoes, went to the barber shop to get his hair cut, tidied himself up, and then took the bus to Beicheng University.
During this time, the college students of Beicheng University were taking final exams, and his mother Ren Xian should also be correcting the exam papers at school.
Qiu Li stood in front of the full-length mirror in the physics building, looking at himself.
His body was straight and slender, his white shirt was extraordinarily clean and white under the sun, his black eyes were illuminated by the sun, his skin was also very white, and his temperament was steady and cool.
Qiu Li took a deep breath, once again mustered up his courage silently, and told himself that now was the best time, and he would not let her down.
He stepped up the stairs with apprehensive steps, and saw Ren Xian in the office that he had already inquired about.
Through the half-closed door, a middle-aged woman was sitting at the desk, bowing her head and correcting the test papers of her students.
She was still wearing a very professional women’s suit, and the suit was draped over her body. Holding a pen in her hand, she carefully corrected each paper. After each paper was corrected, she typed the score on the computer keyboard to enter the student’s grade.
The sun cast a halo on her body, and in the eyes of the young man, she was really holy and beautiful.
Ren Xian also noticed Qiu Li by the door, and asked softly, “Student, what can I do for you?”
Qiu Li walked in nervously, at a loss for what to do, so he bowed down to her.
The word “Mom” was stuck in his throat, but he couldn’t call it out. Qiu Li didn’t even dare to look at her face, and said in a trembling voice, “Teacher Ren, hello.”
Few students were so polite, and even bowed. Ren Xian put down the gel pen in her hand and asked, “Are you my student? Did you fail the test paper and came here to intercede?”
Seeing that she seemed to have forgotten him again, Qiu Li felt a little disappointed and he shook his head: “I’m not your student.”
“Then you are…”
“Teacher Ren, two months ago, I came to listen to your class, chatted with you, and said that I was going to take the entrance exam to Beicheng University.”
In fact, Qiu Li didn’t want to talk to her with a student’s attitude. It seemed that the distance seemed very far away. She was his mother!
Ren Xian reacted for a long time, and finally seemed to have some impression: “Are you the senior high school student who came to my class the other day? You said you wanted to fill in psychology…”
“It’s me.”
Ren Xian laughed: “It’s a pleasure to meet you. Now that the college entrance examination is over, you must have seen all the results. You’re going to fill in the volunteer application soon. How about it? Are you confident in filling in Beicheng University?”
Qiu Li said impatiently: “I got 749 points in the test.”
After finishing speaking, he looked expectantly at Ren Xian.
Ren Xian laughed: “Wow, the score is very high. This score is safe to report to any university in the country. Of course, Beicheng University is also the same. Congratulations!”
“Thank you, Teacher Ren.” Qiu Li finally relaxed.
Mom was satisfied, which was great.
He was still worried all the time, afraid that his mother would be very demanding and he would not be able to meet her requirements.
“By the way, I remember you were going to fill in psychology?”
“Yeah.” He nodded.
“Psychology at Beicheng University is a key discipline. In China, apart from Beicheng University, only Haicheng University can compete with it in psychology. All in all, your choice can’t be wrong.”
“Welcome ” Ren Xian smiled and patted him on the shoulder: “By the way, what’s your name?”
Qiu Li’s heart started beating, he took a deep breath, and was about to speak when he suddenly heard a girl’s voice from the door “Mom, haven’t you finished correcting the papers yet?”
Qiu Li suddenly turned his head and saw a graceful girl standing by the door, about the same age as him, with short hair, fair skin, curved eyebrows and eyes, smiling, and she looked seven or eight points similar to Ren Xian.
All the blood in his body flowed back at once.
“Dad is already waiting at the restaurant. It’s rare for me to come back. You are celebrating my birthday today, and you want me to come and find you in person!”
“There are still a few test papers left, and they will be corrected soon.”
Ren Xian introduced: “This is my daughter, Zhen Xuxu, she is studying at Haicheng University.”
Zhen Xuxu walked into the office, looked at Qiu Li for a while, and saw his handsome face, and couldn’t help but shine: “Oh my God, mom, I’ve never seen such a handsome student.”
“This student just got into our Beicheng University this year with a score of more than 700, which is excellent.”
“Amazing.” Zhen Xuxu asked curiously, “Are you going to apply for my mother’s physics major?”
“He’s filling in psychology,” Ren Xian explained.
“Psychology, psychology is good.” Zhen Xuxu walked up to Qiu Li and said cheerfully, “If you become a psychiatrist, I will definitely get sick every day.”
“Nonsense.”
Ren Xian poked the little girl, “He is younger than you. You are a third-year senior who is preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. Can you look a little like a senior?”
Zhen Xuxu stuck out her tongue and smiled.
Qiu Li couldn’t utter a word, his throat seemed to be filled with lead, his cognition of the whole world was chaotic and subverted… How could it be, how could she have a daughter? And it’s even a daughter who is a few years older than him!
Did mom cheat? Did mom have an extramarital affair?
Qiu Li was stunned, with a splitting headache.
Zhen Xuxu didn’t notice Qiu Li’s livid face at all. She couldn’t wait to get to know Qiu Li, so she said, “It’s my birthday today. Why don’t you go to dinner with us.”
“I find it very rare that my daughter who has been in college for three years, where there are many excellent boys around who pursue her, but she never takes a second look at them and concentrates on her studies. It’s rare for her to be so enthusiastic about this kid all of a sudden.”
Ren Xian smiled and said: “You are not familiar with him, you have only known each other for a few minutes, and you invited him to celebrate your birthday.”
When Zhen Xuxu laughed, the corners of her eyes were like crescent moons: “If you haven’t eaten yet. Well, just treat it as a light meal, please come!”
It could be seen that this girl grew up in an environment where her parents loved her and her family was happy, that’s why she had such a cheerful personality.
The environment in which she grew up was completely different from his.
This was a daughter who grew up loved by her mother.
After a long time, the corner of Qiu Li’s mouth twitched into an absurd smile: “Okay.”
Dj22031: my heart breaks for Qiu Li….
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