Translator: Dj22031
Editor: Dj22031
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He was worried about whether Shen Xigou had received the treatment well, and planned to have a frank and honest talk with him, so he walked out of the bedroom, went to the living room downstairs, stood in front of Shen Xigou, took a deep breath, and asked in as calm a tone as possible.
“Xigou, are you hiding something from me? For example, the fact that those medicines are not your mother’s, but yours.”
Shen Xigou was silent for a long time, then asked softly, “You know?”
Originally, Fu Yuanzhou was not sure yet, but seeing Shen Xigou’s performance, everything became clear at a glance, and his heart tightened instantly: “Why are you hiding it from me?”
“Even my parents know little about my illness.” Shen Xigou smiled, lowered his eyes, seemingly inadvertently, but tightened his fingers, “Do you hate me?”
As if afraid of hearing the answer, before Fu Yuanzhou could speak, Shen Xigou continued: “I… don’t want to lose you, no matter what, as long as you wait by my side, but if I tell the truth, maybe you will worry about me, you will be unhappy, and even leave me…”
“You don’t think that of me? Don’t think of leaving me?”
Fu Yuanzhou interrupted him with a cold tone: “You always hope that I can be happy, what about you, have you thought about yourself?”
Shen Xigou seemed not to expect him to get angry, so his eyes were dazed, as if wanting to apologize to him, seeing this Fu Yuanzhou felt both angry and worried. Driven by this emotion, he pulled out the handcuffs he had hidden, pushed Shen Xigou down, and cuffed his hands firmly.
“Seven?”
Shen Xigou was struggling, and then Fu Yuanzhou put on a blindfold on him, blocking all his sight.
Fu Yuanzhou pressed his chest and said in a cold voice, “Don’t move, just listen to me.”
“…Okay.”
Shen Xigou really didn’t move anymore, and quietly let him do what he did.
“Let me say something first.”
Fu Yuanzhou slowly leaned over, pressed on Shen Xigou’s body, and whispered in his ear: “I will never hate you.”
He kissed Shen Xigou’s face, followed the bridge of his nose, forehead and lips, every kiss was very gentle and contained complex emotions.
“I won’t leave you behind. What I regret is that I didn’t discover your illness earlier and could not accompany you better.”
He put his face on Shen Xigou’s chest, where Shen Xigou’s heartbeat could be heard getting faster and faster, and it was the same for himself.
“No matter what you look like, I will be with you, even if you don’t want me, because I…”
He began to take off his clothes, making the sound of cloth rubbing, but he couldn’t hide his shy but firm voice.
“Because I like you, Xigou.”
“Not just as a friend, but really like you.”
This time was crazier than many times before, Shen Xigou was always reluctant to hurt him, but Fu Yuanzhou himself didn’t have so many scruples, although the initiative was no longer in his hands.
But Fu Yuanzhou realized that, just as Yi Lianna said, even though he and Shen Xigou had known each other for several years, there was still a side to Shen Xigou that he had never known before.
Maybe Shen Xigou was not the almost perfect person in his impression, but there was no doubt that Shen Xigou was willing to be like this for him, he would not ask Shen Xigou to do more for him, he could tolerate everything about Shen Xigou.
And all this was because they liked each other. He finally knew that Shen Xigou had liked him a long time ago, but because of his illness, he couldn’t say it out loud, and he didn’t even plan to do anything until that accident.
They confirmed their relationship and became a couple. Fu Yuanzhou actively understood Shen Xigou’s condition and cooperated with his treatment. As he promised before, he would not let Shen Xigou go. He wanted to accompany him to become better.
“You are my most precious, most beloved, and the only treasure I have.”
The author has something to say: This is the end of the full text, and I have finished another article. Applause! I’m such a hardworking rabbit!
I’d like to talk about this process or my views on the characters, of course I definitely like every character, if I didn’t like them, I won’t have written them, besides Fu Yuanzhou, I have to say that Xie Lin is my favorite character, otherwise I would have made him a villain. Shen Xigou is a little bit worse than Xie Lin, but I like him very much as well. The two attributes I like the most are the cool type and the gentle type. If anyone has read my previous articles, they may also be able to see the signs. Xigou and Yu Fei are gentle, Yuan Ye is the type of big sunny boy (well, I have always liked this type, I can’t help but feel fraternal towards them).
In terms of subdivision, Xie Lin is on the strong side, and he prefers to control Fu Yuanzhou. Sometimes he’s even quite coquettish (.), In fact, he understands everything, everything, but he doesn’t say it, he’s cold outside and hot inside, and he can be very scary when he explodes.
Ran Shutang is more inclined to the feeling of a teenager, and his emotional changes are quite obvious. He can treat negative emotions (such as when he was against Fu Yuanzhou before) with an indifferent attitude, but for positive emotions, especially when he loves someone, he can’t hide his emotions and will be easily shy. His actions in pursuing people will be more passive, and he will turn passive into active only after he is stimulated. For example, inexplicably sleeping with Fu Yuanzhou in the IF line, now he really can’t hide it. Then you saw how active he was in taking the initiative, because he felt that he had to be responsible.
Yu Fei is said to be a scheming green tea, but in fact he is (…), he is from a divorced family, and he followed his mother. Although his mother loves him very much, she is too busy after all, so the time of her taking care of him is very less. He has stayed abroad since he was a child. Although he looks quite outgoing, in fact Yu Fei is very lacking in love. Fu Yuanzhou is the elder brother next door, his childhood playmate, his protector, the object of his admiration, and the person he likes. This has led to him beautifying and magnifying Fu Yuanzhou’s image infinitely, and letting him occupy a very, very important position in his heart. The lonely life puts a layer of protection on Yu Fei. Generally speaking, he is still kind, but he is a rebellious child. Occasionally, he doesn’t learn well, such as smoking or something, so he has also learned to use all means, even if he wants to grab Fu Yuanzhou, but he has no intention of hurting anyone. The former Xiao Fei snatched Fu Yuanzhou, and she felt very guilty towards Xie Lin, and so does Yu Fei who has changed his gender.
It is true that Shen Xigou has mental and psychological problems, so that he will have some wrong ideas. For example, he imprisoned Fu Yuanzhou because he felt that other people brought Fu Yuanzhou pain (such as breaking up with Yu Fei, quarreling with his parents and Xie Lin), he felt that everyone could not bring happiness to Fu Yuanzhou and would hurt him, and he felt that he had the responsibility to protect Yuanzhou. He adopted the method of isolation to alienate Fu Yuanzhou from them, but he found that it didn’t work, so he locked Fu Yuanzhou up, but later he realized that it was himself who hurt Fu Yuanzhou the most, so he used self-mutilation as a means of self-punishment. Later, Fu Yuanzhou was not let go because Shen Xigou had a “desire to survive”. Because of his illness, he actually had no desire to survive. Fu Yuanzhou was alive, which gave Shen Xigou a reason to live. He pinned his life’s desires on Fu Yuanzhou. He felt that if he let Fu Yuanzhou go, Fu Yuanzhou will definitely break up with him, and will never see him again. He said that he will die if he leaves Fu Yuanzhou. In fact, he means that if Fu Yuanzhou does not want him, he will definitely commit suicide, just like a person who had given up on his life. He doesn’t want to let Fu Yuanzhou go. It can be understood as a person’s struggle before death. This is the survival instinct of human beings. Shen Xigou originally didn’t have the survival instinct, but Fu Yuanzhou is his survival instinct. This is very contradictory. Fu Yuanzhou left, just like ordinary people who don’t want to lose their survival instincts, so Shen Xigou loves Fu Yuanzhou very much, but his feelings for Fu Yuanzhou are beyond love, he loves Fu Yuanzhou like he loves himself (referring to self-importance, not really narcissism), but he actually doesn’t love himself (because he has no desire to survive), which is a very contradictory emotion. Anyway, it’s okay to say that Fu Yuanzhou is the person he likes, his world, and his beliefs. Yuanzhou is the universe for him.
Yuan Ye, in fact, is the big boy in high school that everybody is looking forward to! (Patting the table) I really like this kind of vigor and full of vitality boy, although he fights, drinks (…), and plays around, but he can learn and is popular. Good personality, good sports, good family background, five time good students, two times better than the three time good student, who dares to say that he is not a good student!! (??) And I also set him as an e-sports player, as I am very fond of the characters in the novel who are professional players. After all, I also grew up watching “Full-time Master” (?), so the word “professional player” has its own halo and filter in my eyes. He is supposed to be a rebellious child, but in my setting, he is a very considerate and meticulous person, and he will obediently listen to his lover, let him be a good student, he will be a good student, and do whatever he is asked to do (except give up playing games, after all his father can’t make him give up, but if he said it, he would definitely reduce the time appropriately). He will remember all your habits and your likes and dislikes, buy you water when you are thirsty, give you food when you are hungry, coax you when you are unhappy, and wait for you for hours, buy what you want, he’s definitely a dream boyfriend =v= If you want to fall in love on campus, Yuan Ye is actually the best candidate among these people =v=
Then there’s another person, I didn’t write this person, this is the person I envisioned when I made the setting, let’s talk about him here, his name in the setting was going to be Song Yucheng, and he was the future competitor for Fu Yuanzhou’s company. He is six or seven years older than Fu Yuanzhou. He and Fu Yuanzhou have also known each other since childhood, but not as childhood sweethearts, because he is actually not very familiar with him. He has learned to draw since he was a child. He is cute and always bullies Fu Yuanzhou. After growing up, Song Yucheng still loved teasing this younger brother. He asked Fu Yuanzhou to act as a model for him when he was painting. Halfway through the painting, he said solemnly that he wanted to paint a nude body painting, and asked Fu Yuanzhou to take off his clothes, which scared Yuanzhou into a daze. Later, he said that he was teasing him, and Fu Yuanzhou was so angry that he wanted to tear him apart. At this time, all the adults came and told Yuanzhou not to make trouble, and Fu Yuanzhou was so angry that he wanted to vomit blood. It’s his psychological shadow, he can only cry to Xie Lin for comfort whenever Song Yucheng teases Fu Yuanzhou as a little brother, of course he falls down when he teases him, he knows he has a crush on Fu Yuanzhou, but he doesn’t take it seriously, I thought I wouldn’t fall into it, but he fell down and fell down completely (that’s about all I want to say…!)
T/N: We are finally at the end of this novel… After that long-ass author’s note, I don’t think I can add anymore to it but I just want to say Thank you to all those who have supported me while I was translating this novel….
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