Translator: Dj22031
Editor: Dj22031
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Gu Mian may have been emotionally weak since he was a child. The first time he realized that he was different from ordinary people was on the day he learned of his mother’s death.
When he was in school that day, the head teacher called him out and told him with a look of sadness that his mother had died in the hunting plan and his father was being rescued.
He didn’t have much sense of reality about the sudden news. When he was picked up by his father’s subordinates and rushed to the hospital, he didn’t cry or make a fuss. He just sat obediently on the bench outside the emergency room.
Many people came to comfort him, but he did not cry and was immersed in his own world, which made these people seem a bit redundant.
When his mother was buried, Gu Mian did not cry. On the contrary, his always strong father had red eyes and wanted to cry several times.
Later, Gu Mian heard some people say behind his back that he had a cold nature, as he didn’t even shed a tear when his mother died.
In fact, Gu Mian shed tears, not on the day he learned of his death, nor on the day of his burial, but on a very ordinary day when he found that the vegetables his mother put in the microwave oven were moldy and gave off a pungent smell. The stench in his nose was not only pungent but also irritating to his eyes. After the little Gu Mian disposed of the plate of dishes, he realized that he had burst into tears at some point.
He could no longer eat the food cooked by his mother.
It was not until this time that he associated his mother with death.
After his wife left this home, General Gu refused to remarry. He used his best military methods to educate Gu Mian. He created a schedule with an itinerary accurate to the minute, including study, exercise, meals, leisure and entertainment, etc. All of it was fully arranged.
An itinerary that even an adult might not be able to stick to, was easily adapted to by six or seven-year-old Gu Mian.
He liked the feeling of having everything planned out. Whether it was going to school or entering the battlefield, every step of his life was completed step by step, including his marriage.
But not.
Gu Mian had not expected the impact of the high matching of pheromones. Because of the influence of pheromones, he would be extra patient with Li Songyun and be able to listen calmly to Li Songyun’s various trivial and useless information.
When Li Songyun first married into the Gu family, he was chirping like a little sparrow. He moved his boxes of clothes to the Gu family, and while he was busy sorting the clothes, he said to Gu Mian, I haven’t worn these clothes a few times, and ah, you I haven’t seen them worn before, so they are new clothes to you.
The sun was shining brightly, filling the whole room brightly. The fine dust raised when the clothes shook seemed like a laughing elf in the halo. The little fluff on Li Songyun’s face was clearly visible in the light when he was thinking casually. He didn’t know why. It was too hot to sort things out, and he was still a little shy facing my new husband. His face was slightly red, a bit like a fluffy peach.
At that time, Li Songyun tended to talk too much and blush when he was nervous. This behavior was secretly ridiculed by people, saying that the clothes Li Songyun wore were cheap and tacky, and that Li Songyun was too low-class to be shown on the stage. In short, these were not very good things, and these words were used with ulterior motives. The news thus reached Gu Mian’s ears.
Seeing the omega in front of him who was secretly mocking his wife, Gu Mian suddenly felt displeasure in his heart, and he said to the omega, “Go away”.
The omega ran out crying in the end. He didn’t know if he was scared or something.
Gu Mian was silently digesting the depression in his heart, like a suppressed fire. After marking them for life, alphas would naturally be protective of their partners. When Li Songyun was slandered, Gu Mian’s anger was like his treasures were smashed and damaged.
For so many years, Gu Mian’s emotions had been like a pool of stagnant water, and Li Songyun was the pebble that could easily break the calmness of the water.
After realizing this, Gu Mian began to feel uneasy. He didn’t like the feeling of his emotions being controlled by pheromones. This involuntary sense of loss of control made him disgusted and frightened.
He chose to distance himself from Li Songyun. Except for routine contact during the estrus and susceptible periods, he rarely took the initiative to approach Li Songyun. This kind of respectful relationship allowed Gu Mian to immerse himself in his own world without being disturbed by the outside world.
He felt that he controlled this relationship perfectly, but in fact, everything changed from the day Li Songyun divorced him.
On the first day of his divorce from Li Songyun, Gu Mian had a fever.
It had been a long time since he had been sick, let alone something as minor as a fever.
Gu Mian didn’t realize that he was sick at first. He went to work as usual, sitting at his desk and sorting documents, but this document had nothing to do with work.
Gu Mian was analyzing the reasons why Li Songyun divorced him, and he wanted to know what the problem was.
He wrote that he never inquired about Li Songyun’s personal life, did not comfort Li Songyun when Gu Tunan was in danger, asked Li Songyun to overcome the influence of pheromones and give him enough private space, and a series of things he could recall.
Gu Mian’s memory was so good that he had not finished writing this document for fifteen pages.
When Lieutenant General Mo came over to chat with Gu Mian and accidentally saw this document, he was shocked for a full minute before finishing his words and said to Gu Mian: “Old Gu, you are really going too far.”
Lieutenant General Mo grabbed a handful of hair, it was difficult to describe my mood at this moment in words, “You…if you really want to reflect on yourself in this way, you might as well categorize these things. Some are the husband’s negligence, and some are your negligence in responsibility as a father.”
“You were negligent in your role as a father. Do you accompany your children for recreational activities every week? Do you take your children to and from school and help them with their homework…”
Gu Mian was silent for a long time. After listening to Lieutenant General Mo’s words, he chose to leave early and go to Gu Peifeng’s school.
The divorce agreement between him and Li Songyun was very clear. Gu Peifeng and Li Songyun were together from Monday to Friday, and Gu Peifeng went to Gu’s house on weekends. Today was not the day when he was going to take Gu Peifeng home. Logically speaking, he should not go to Gu Peifeng’s school.
It wasn’t until Li Songyun, dressed in red, burst into his sight that Gu Mian realized that it was pheromones that drove him to make this decision.
He wanted to see Li Songyun.
Across the vast sea of people, the red dress awakened his memory of smelling Li Songyun’s pheromones for the first time. It was as elegant as a camellia.
When he was young, Li Songyun wore red, like the red camellia blooming in spring, brilliant and charming.
Maybe it was because Li Songyun was wearing red when he smelled Li Songyun’s pheromones for the first time. Li Songyun in red could easily burn his emotions like a ball of fire, so he asked Li Songyun not to wear red again.
After so many years, when this red touch fell on Li Songyun again, it was more like a glass of mellow red wine. He was already tipsy before he even drank it.
At this time, the sky was covered with sunset, which reflected Gu Mian’s gray-blue eyes red, as if a candle had been blown over in the night.
Gu Mian watched Li Songyun walk further and further away, and he could feel that part of the lifelong mark he left on Li Songyun was washed away.
This realization made him feel as if a piece of his heart had been cut out.
He finally realized very clearly that Li Songyun would never come back again.
Gu Mian suddenly felt very cold. There was a big temperature difference between day and night during this period. Gu Mian was only wearing a thin shirt. He thought maybe it was for this reason that he felt cold.
Gu Mian got on the hovercar. He got off work early today, an hour earlier than the normal time for him to go home. He didn’t want to go home at the moment, and he didn’t know where he was going. He was drifting with the flow in this bustling city where the lights were on. Neon lights shone through the car window on his red face.
When Li Songyun in front of him got off the car, Gu Mian realized that he had followed Li Songyun unconsciously.
When Li Songyun got out of the car, a man in a doll costume suddenly made a series of funny moves, and then magically took out a handful of flowers made of lollipops and presented them to Gu Peifeng.
Gu Peifeng said something to Li Songyun with a look of surprise on his face. When Li Songyun nodded, Gu Peifeng hugged the bouquet excitedly.
The man in the pig suit took off his heavy hood, revealing white hair wet with sweat and a sharp and handsome face.
That was Jiao Jian.
Gu Mian watched Jiao Jian and Li Songyun walking side by side. The two were talking and laughing, while Gu Peifeng walked happily between them holding a gift. The three of them looked more like a harmonious family of three.
——”He is my brother.”
——”We have known each other since we were teenagers. You don’t know him because you have never paid attention to my life, learned about my past, or had contact with my friends.”
On the night when he signed the divorce agreement, Gu Mian tried to get to know Li Songyun’s friends. He watched the screen recording of NPC Lu En in the holographic game assessment and learned about Jiao Jian’s life in reality. In fact, he did not need to analyze it himself, as long as he searched the names Jiao Jian and Li Songyun on Xingwang, he would get a series of love interpretations compiled by netizens using their excellent imagination.
“Love is armor”, “Love gave Jiao Jian courage and strength”, “Fight for love”…
Gu Mian watched Li Songyun’s back completely disappear into the sea of people, and he slowly withdrew his gaze.
He couldn’t open his eyes.
Maybe it was because he hadn’t slept for the past two days.
It took him a long time to get used to having an omega sleeping next to his bed. He remembered the way that omega carefully said to him, “I like to sleep with a pillow.” He also remembered the first time that omega put his legs on his body and used his high body temperature which left a warm and cool temperature on his body.
When Li Songyun wrote to him on the front line during her pregnancy, he mentioned that he bought a Thuja-flavored pillow, saying that the Thuja-flavored pillow would improve the quality of sleep, and that his Thuja-flavored pheromone was the most hypnotic.
Maybe it wasn’t his pheromone hypnosis, but Li Songyun was used to the smell.
Not only Li Songyun, but also him. He was used to Li Songyun’s faint scent of camellia and her warm body temperature.
When he finally got used to Li Songyun’s existence, arranged Li Songyun into his life, and planned every day with Li Songyun’s presence, Li Songyun suddenly left.
He left without hesitation, leaving only a large and abrupt blank in his life schedule.
Lieutenant General Mo said that Li Songyun left him because he was heartbroken. Gu Mian tried to understand what it felt like to be heartbroken.
He thought he still couldn’t understand it now.
Because if your heart is dead, you will definitely no longer feel pain.
But at this moment, he felt long and lingering pain one after another.
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