Translator: Dj2203
Editor: Dj2203
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So in the end, they only kissed.
However, Brother Lin said that what matters when you like someone is the person, not their body, so Yan Han held back.
Now, if he were to do something to Lin Jianlu, he would actually be a little timid.
To be honest, he was just a coward when it came to relationships, otherwise he wouldn’t have been single all this time.
People’s personalities are strange, and the causes mostly come from childhood experiences.
He once overheard Li Hongqing say that if someone didn’t receive love from their parents when they were young, they would be very afraid of being loved when they grow up.
Although he didn’t want to admit it, he felt that he was a typical example of this theory.
He had thought a lot about this during this time, and he and Lin Jianlu undoubtedly had feelings for each other.
They had been through so much together, even a stone would have warmed up, let alone him, who was naturally gay.
As long as he opened the floodgates in his heart, those feelings would become obvious.
The reason he hadn’t admitted it was because he was afraid to admit it, subconsciously feeling that he wasn’t worthy.
Everyone had weaknesses.
Yan Han’s weakness stemmed from this.
However, besides his weaknesses, he also had many strengths.
For example, once he became aware of this subconscious urge to escape or avoid, he would force himself to adjust his mindset and face his inner self, to face Lin Jianlu.
“Life isn’t that complicated,” Yan Han said.
At that moment, they had turned off the tap, left the restroom, and sat side-by-side on a bench next to the gymnasium… to share their feelings.
Yan Han’s meticulously maintained face was fair and rosy, his handsome features facing Lin Jianlu directly: “But when did you start to like me a little?”
“Hmm?” Lin Jianlu looked at him: “Why do you ask that?”
“I want to know exactly when you started to like me. Were you so kind and helpful to me before because you liked me or just out of classmate affection?”
He had wanted to ask this question before, but only out of curiosity.
However, when they were first assigned to different classes, he hadn’t decided whether he should accept Lin Jianlu’s advances, so he automatically avoided all related topics, leaving the question unanswered until now.
Clearly, what Yan Han considered a simple question was undoubtedly difficult for Lin Jianlu to answer.
But he never brushed off Yan Han’s questions, so he began to recall little by little, yet he still couldn’t pinpoint when he had started to like Yan Han.
Finally, Lin Jianlu asked with difficulty, “Can I start counting from when I wanted to get closer to you?”
“…” This stumped even his older brother.
“Hmm… I guess so.”
“That was during the first class placement exam.” Lin Jianlu smiled.
Yan Han: “!!!”
Wait, the first class placement exam… before that, they hadn’t seen each other much, had they?!
No, that’s not the point.
The point is—
“You switched from arts to science just to be in the same class as me?!”
This idea was too crazy, but after this class placement exam, Lin Jianlu was able to be assigned to the same class as him in this way, so Yan Han didn’t find it unbelievable that he had been parachuted into Class 14 last time.
“I didn’t expect to actually be in the same class as you last time.” Lin Jianlu said, “The decision was very sudden, and there was no prior preparation. I planned to observe slowly and then decide, but I didn’t expect that we would be so destined to be in the same class.”
Yan Han: “…”
No one would believe that.
He bluntly exposed, “Didn’t you look at my grades, then at the overall grades of Class 14, and realize that excluding the three humanities subjects, just calculating the scores for Math, Chinese, and English, you could just barely make it into Class 14?”
Lin Jianlu smiled slightly at him, then said with an air of self-righteousness, “I didn’t take the science exam, and it would be difficult for me to suddenly go to a science-focused school. For the sake of fairness, calculating only the scores for Math, Chinese, and English is the most appropriate.”
Yan Han: “…”
Lin Jianlu continued to smile, “If we only calculate the scores for the three subjects, we just happen to end up in the same class, so it’s fate.”
“…”
See, who said Brother Lin wouldn’t be cunning!
I really want to tell Wen Juerong and the others, who were worried that he would bully their Brother Lin before parting ways, that their Brother Lin has learned to be wicked now, and there’s no need to worry about him at all
“But what exactly made you want to be in the same class as me back then?”
Even if you really liked someone, most people wouldn’t choose to transfer directly to science… Oh, but Brother Lin isn’t exactly an ordinary person, so maybe it really is as he said, he just wanted to study science, and being in the same class with him was purely fate…
Bullshit!
He believed that so much back then, and now he doesn’t believe it at all.
“Because I thought you were very serious when I watched your live stream.” Lin Jianlu answered seriously, “Looking back now, it feels kind of cute.”
Yan Han: Me? Cute?!
Me, cute?!
Lin Jianlu smiled and nodded: “Yeah.”
Because he had already noticed someone, and then saw him on the live streaming website, so from the first time he saw him studying late into the night, Lin Jianlu began to pay more and more attention to this person.
Some people were like that, always full of energy and drive when they did things, and as clear and warm as light, and then somehow, this light shone into your heart, bringing you a glimmer of clarity and light.
Before this, his life had always been very closed off.
Because of his exceptionally high intelligence and a lack of interaction and communication with family from a young age, Lin Jianlu developed a meticulous logical thinking ability automatically from a very young age, without any formal instruction.
This made him appear like a genius in many ways, and indeed he was.
However, genius did not equate to perfection.
Because he couldn’t understand human emotions, he subconsciously resisted contact with humans from a very young age.
Although he was human, a social animal, and inherently yearned for human interaction, this desire to integrate into others coupled with his complete lack of understanding of emotions had resulted in a pervasive sense of loneliness surrounding him since childhood.
Lin Jianlu had always been conflicted in this regard.
From a certain perspective, this contradiction had kept him struggling in boundless darkness.
Later, his loneliness and the survival instinct to escape the darkness spurred him to actively seek understanding and analysis of things he couldn’t comprehend after witnessing them.
Time and again, at a young age, he habitually observed the words and actions of adults, analyzing their thoughts and emotions, trying to integrate into their world.
Although a genius, Lin Jianlu grew tired of being one from a very young age. He longed to integrate into human society, to laugh, cry, and play freely like other children.
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